I need to talk to myself, and this is the only way I know to do it.
I need to lose weight. I just saw a picture of myself from 2004 and even though I felt fat at the time, I now think I looked damn good. I want to look like that again (plus 7 years of aging). I know I can, I've done it before. But I want to do it right. And cheap. Can't afford Weight Watchers, not that it ever worked for me anyway. Or Curves, not that it ever worked for me either.
That's me on the right, with my family. Not so bad right? But fat as all get out. That arm looks like a ham hock. My ass is not quite that big. The pockets on my pants make things worse than they are. My belly is the most offensive, which I am strategically hiding behind my skinny sister-in-law!
Anyway, this is the beginning. My weight is about 192. I'm on vacation and sitting around a lot, so it may have gone up. I want to be less. Nothing specific. Just less. I've been 120. I've been 210. I was 125 when I met my husband. I was 140 at my wedding. And 155 when I got pregnant. I was 185 when I had my son. Would I like to weigh 120? Of coarse! But I would be happy with 150. 130 would be great. But today I want to weigh one pound less than I do right now. That's all. Off to have breakfast, to begin at the beginning.
I'm kind of bored to death. It's 104 degrees, can't go outside. So Sam has the television. My computer is my only friend. No car to go anywhere. Thankfully, food is not on the menu until 3-ish. These is nothing really good to eat. Salad. Maybe a sandwich. Didn't realize it is Saturday. Maybe I can find a TV that has Bio so I can watch Celebrity Ghost Stories. Unlikely.
ReplyDeleteCrap, I went to the movies. Some popcorn and 1/4 of an Icee. Oh, well. Still hanging in there.
ReplyDeleteI made it! 1300 calories. Had to have broccoli and strawberries for dinner. Good night.
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